Can You Feel It?

 I’ve come to some new lovely layers of awareness lately. All of these insights, I know, are delivered by the Divine Light. How do I know this? Because my Higher Power’s love and guidance comes quietly, softly, and makes me feel at ease…even if the insight is hard to hear.

I know it’s been a lot. It may all feel super similar, and yet there are new pockets of awareness that are coming up for me as we move. I am not surprised that I am on Week 7 of juicy blog content.

Here it goes.

When I experienced tragic loss several years ago, I started to have these wild and profound experiences where I received confirmation (already had a hunch) that our souls are the purest form of love. And I also was made fully aware, that everything is energy and we are all connected.

Okay, you can smile now and think, there’s that Julie “woo-woo.”

And let me tell you, I am all about the woo-woo. I could talk to you all day about the woo-woo. And this journey has guided me to the most unbelievably healing experiences and life-changing, transformational moments, bringing me to the computer as I now type these words.

And I am here to say –

The energy work, the breathwork, the yoga, the meditation, the cacao ceremonies, the kirtan, the sound healing, the retreats…they are beautiful. They are perfect. They change my life every day.

And, these practices alone will not bring to my Highest self if I am not willing to hold emotion in my body. The journey can only go but so far if I am not willing to be incredibly uncomfortable and make different choices.

I cannot heal my people-pleasing wounds by simply breathing and meditating.

I have to be willing to speak up, even if my voice shakes.

I have to be willing to enter conflict, if my heart is calling me to share.

I have to be willing to say no when I really do mean no. (And yes, when I really do mean yes).

I have to hold these emotions, claim them, feel them, and choose the action that supports my evolution.

I have to do the hard things.

These beautiful tools of Divinity have saved my life more than I can even put into words. They were the things I used to seek for relief and reprieve (the end game if you will).

Now, they are becoming perfect companions as I journey back into my body, so that I may integrate them all into this full, messy, beautiful, human experience.

I don’t want to just find relief in my nervous system for glimmers of time following an activation. I don’t want to just feel better after a 30 minute yoga practice or a cup of cacao.

I want to feel unshakable safety in my body, mind, and spirit in every moment.

They aren’t the solution as I once thought. But they’re some of the best friends you could have, who walk with you through the darkness, to rediscover the light.

If no one has told you today, I believe in you. I love you. And I respect your journey.

With Love & Light,

JJ